I swallowed a statue of Saint Jerome.

My mother said I could be forgiven, because I’m only nine, but she followed that forgiveness up with the clarification that I am a very bright nine-year-old, which is why I go to a gifted school that is secular rather than parochial. She told me that even if I weren’t very bright, a nine-year-old should still know better than to go around swallowing things that don’t belong being swallowed. She asked me if there was some kind of extenuating circumstance that led to me ingesting Saint Jerome, and I told her that when I saw the tiny statue in the tchotchke store, I knew I had to swallow it.

My mother takes me to the tchotchke store every Tuesday afternoon after school, and each time, I feel an urge to swallow everything in the store. I fight it, and when I do, I tell myself that I am a bad person. I tell myself that my advanced intelligence is nothing more than evil being manifested as strange desires. That’s why at night I take a pair of scissors and cut off a small piece of my pajama top. That’s why in the morning I take my father’s toothbrush and hold it against my armpit for thirty seconds.

That’s why when I saw Saint Jerome, I knew I had to swallow him. I didn’t even pay for him first. I’m a shoplifter and a saint swallower. No priest could ever cure me.

When we got home, my mother told me that I would pass Saint Jerome, and I had no idea what she was talking about. My school is for smart children, but we haven’t covered biology, so if there was some way for Saint Jerome to come out of me other than the normal way, I couldn’t think of what it was, and it couldn’t be the normal way because Saint Jerome was not a particularly small statue. He wasn’t large either (I did manage to get him down, after all), but he wasn’t small, and I wondered if perhaps by “pass” my mother was saying, “You’ll vomit him up.”

That wasn’t a pleasant thought, but better than the alternative.

Mother sent me to bed without dinner, because she said dinner was Saint Jerome. I was still hungry, but I didn’t want to argue with her, because when you argue with my mother she quotes Proust to you, and you spend hours trying to determine what she was saying. As I lay in bed, I felt a tickle in the back of my throat. I coughed to try and clear the irritation, but it only made it worse. I tried to go to sleep, but the tickle grew into an aggravation. Then, I felt a pulsing in my throat, and soon I was leaning over the side of my bed regurgitating a pile of books.

This did not shock me, as I had done some research when I got home from the shop and discovered that Saint Jerome is the saint of libraries and translations. Indeed, all the books I had puked up were translations of famous works. I spotted Candide, The Old Man and the Sea, and Play It As It Lays—all in Portuguese. I felt extremely sad that I couldn’t read Portuguese, only speak it. My school focuses more on communication than literature. I can speak Portuguese, Danish, Quebecois, and Tanzanian, but I can’t read any of it. I got out of bed and placed the books outside my room as though I were staying at a hotel and needed someone to come retrieve my dirty room service plates.

Then I slept quite soundly.

When I woke up, it was just before dawn. I stepped out of bed and made my way to the bathroom. I had forgotten to cut up my pajamas amidst all the hubbub of the evening, so I took the scissors my father uses for trimming his nose hair, and I snipped off a piece of my left sleeve. Then, I took my father’s toothbrush and reintroduced it to my armpit. Once that was accomplished, I relieved myself and noticed that no statue was produced. Perhaps Jerome had decided to stay inside me. Perhaps he had transformed himself into the pile of books, and now he was free from my system completely. Saints can do all sorts of things, can’t they?

When I entered the kitchen, I noticed the table was covered in books. There were books in the sink. Books in a pot on the stove. The fridge door was open and books were spilling out of it. I ran to my parents’ bedroom and there were stacks of books all over their bed. I saw no trace of them, however. The same was true of my little sister’s room. I looked out of her bedroom window onto our front yard and saw that all the houses up and down the street were buried under mountains of books.

Had I done this? Was this my fault?

I decided I should retrieve the mail, but all I found in our mailbox was a copy of The Life of Saint Jerome by Albert G. Froggen. I understood the message: Jerome was behind this. I threw the book in the trash, because the pull quotes on the back weren’t very effusive. Normally I would donate a book rather than throw it away, but the world seemed different now, and along with it, my personal code of ethics. I might have burned the books had I the chance. They’d replaced my family; maybe even humanity itself.

With no clear direction, I began to walk to the tchotchke store. It was a short drive, but a long walk, and I didn’t reach it until several hours later. Being less than ten, my legs are still rather short and I’m not a very fast walker. When I reached the store, I noticed there were no books covering it. In fact, I didn’t spot any books at all, which is rather surprising, since the store regularly sells coffee table books and the occasional signed copy of The Prince of Tides. The door was open, and I heard the little bell ding as I walked in.

Once inside, I looked around, but all I saw were things. There was no one manning the cash register. There were no other customers. It was just me and the knickknacks.

Unsure of what else to do, I began to swallow them. First the small ones. Other tiny statues, snow globes, etc, etc. I subsequently moved onto glass baubles and ashtrays. By the time the sun had set, I had taken in nearly half the store’s inventory. I decided that was enough for one day, and I began to head home, promising myself I would come back tomorrow to devour the rest.

It occurred to me that if I went to sleep, I may throw up a wild variation of all I’d taken in. Perhaps I would upchuck the entire store, but a more modern version. I imagined expensive paintings and sleek sofas erupting from my mouth. Instead, when I closed my eyes, I failed to feel the tickle. A prayer ran through my head. Something I’d heard once and quickly forgotten until a moment when it could reappear and ask to be spoken.

And so I spoke it out loud and said, “Amen.”

I thought the prayer might dislodge at least a small object, but nothing materialized. A little belch escaped my lips, but that was all.

While I’d like to tell you what I prayed for, I can’t remember now. There’s so much you forget as soon as you fall asleep.

It’s a miracle we remember anything in the morning.