by Lexi Pelle (she/her)
Lexi Pelle was the winner of the 2022 Jack McCarthy Book prize. Her work has appeared or is forthcoming in Rattle, Ninth Letter, One Art, Sucarnochee Review, and Zenaida. Her debut book, Let Go With The Lights On, will be released in May. You can find Lexi on Instagram @lexipellepoetry, or on her website lexipelle.org
Dada
Google Dadaist art
and the first thing
you see is a man
with apes for eyes.
Makes you want to
collage over everything.
Siphon the rest
-lessness from
the story till
it shines
like a signed
urinal. Cut out
the missiles and
replace them
with megaphones
the size of men
or jars of mayo.
Paper over his penis
a plastic bear
with slow honey.
Your mom’s diet pills
float to the ceiling
like birthday balloons.
I’m not trying
to simplify anything.
The platypus is
poisonous.
Pepper spray in
the junk drawer.
Glue an eye
over your Dad’s
eye when he doesn’t
believe you. He doesn’t
need anything else.
You Let Us Rollerskate In The Condo
—That’s what I want to write, not the night
I first heard you purging penne vodka
into the toilet, not what you said
on the phone those weeks I walked
to Krauser’s alone: You were the biggest
one in the whole damn recovery facility.
I don’t remember whose idea it was
to strap on the mud-caked skates;
Kate and I pushed back the coffee table,
the books scattered into birds.
The popcorn ceiling bursting into
butter-colored mornings in the park
before the divorce—different from
Dad’s house with its sitting room
we weren’t allowed to sit in. We rolled
across the wall-to-wall carpeting
in our minds. We stumbled. Our wheels
catching in the weave, we laughed
when you joined in, and trying to hold
our hands, pulled us down with you.
Falling became the game; it was funny
to trip each other, tug down hard on a sleeve.
We didn’t cry when we hit the soft
carpet, didn’t act like it hurt when it hurt.
Elderly Couple Found Dead Buried Under Snow
The man on top
of the woman,
frozen like the slice
of wedding cake
my mother kept
for years in the freezer.
They’d been there
a week. They walked
a mile before giving
up and lying down
a hundred yards
from the house
they couldn’t see
through the storm.
How close we are to
what we’ll never reach.
I imagine her
in snow-soaked denim
like a pressed flower
beneath him,
what they said
in their final moment.
I’d let the flurries
melt into our
four-poster bed,
we’d roleplay
safety: Not tonight
honey, I’m tired.
Pass the hand cream.
You get the light.

